Your thinking of yourself more than the other people.
It is that simple. Get out of yourself to live for others. They need you more than you realize. Sure they have other people in their lives, but you are important to them also. Get out there for others sake. Act on behalf of others, not yourself. You feel frustrated because you are still weighing whether you want to give up this for others or do your own thing. (Is that so bad?) Yes, because I have commissioned you, My Children, to live for others, not yourself. (But, am I just trying to gain points by doing this?) No, because the only points that count for anything are the points you make with Me. (I just don’t feel like doing this.) Well, that is your choice. I have given all of you a freewill, so you make up your own mind as to the path you choose. (Thank You, dear Jesus, for helping me to see more clearly what was causing me to be so frustrated. Of course, I want to do Your Will, so I will do it.)
…weighing whether you want to give up this for others or do your own thing.